My Story
The Pain I Held Within...
Servant Zero is an anonymous Christian music project born out of a decade-long journey through deep pain, spiritual abuse, and ultimately, healing. For over ten years, I endured intense mental and emotional abuse at the hands of a controlling pastor—someone who believed he alone was responsible for my soul, overwhelming me with manipulation and fear.
These experiences left me with deep scars—emotionally, spiritually, and mentally. I still wrestle with prayer, overanalyze my actions, and face questions about God that are hard to explain unless you’ve lived through similar hurt. The wounds ran so deep that I found myself drifting from Jesus, as relationship was replaced by religion.
Yet, through this darkness, God ignited in me a passion to help others who have suffered in silence. Servant Zero became my way of processing trauma, finding hope, and offering a voice to those who feel voiceless. My music reflects the realities of spiritual abuse, but also charts a journey toward victory and restoration as I’ve found a healthy church and begun to heal.